It is not me

When will this line of thinking “it’s the world’s fault except mine” ever come to an end? Refusing responsibility when circumstances do not favor you it’s rather questionable and reveals more of an individual’s character than their intelligence and ability to get themselves out of problems.

If there is one thing I have learnt along the way is the mere fact that there is a need not to always be right and win every discussion that you partake in. Every discussion you have should never be based on a competition nor competing ideas neither.

At times taking full responsibilities of some of the mistakes you unintentionally and intentionally made does not mean you’re weak. It means you want to do right by everyone. It also shows your maturity level.

Love: A bumpy road

I loved him that is all I have ever done

Believed in him when he told me he loved me

Gave him the key to my heart and let him into my residence

Gave him everything there is to give in the name of love

I listened to him and gave him all my attention

I stuck and stood by him, like any woman madly in love

When the world, friends and his family turned against him

There I was on his side over that of others

Holding onto him tightly during thunderous seasons

For he was never at fault nor wrong in my eyes

He was perfect and everything; in him, I saw our future

He was the only man who mattered in my life

When with him, I felt heavenly and liberated

He knew exactly what to say to fill my heart with happiness

And have the strength to fight any difficulty

That may arise on my way

All the effort I had invested in our relationship,

Praying he will one day be the man I build my home with

Thinking one day he will be the father of my kids

It gradually turned out to be a strenuous and painful lie

I was so blind to notice numerous red flags

His controlling behavior like always deciding what I should dress

His constant unhappiness of my spending time with male colleagues

Doing what I daily get paid for and him wanting me to resign

Nothing seemed to calm him down

He blamed me for his mistakes with direct linkage to his broken childhood

In love, I were and managed to normalize what should not

Friends warned me and I defended him and even lied for him  

I believed everything he said about us

I convincingly felt like I was his one and only woman

But it was not to be as to him I was just another random woman

Another fool of a victim to abusively toy with and cheat on

Love is build upon emotions is always taken advantaged of

By broken people to make themselves feel better

Broken I may be but I am undefeated