Reality of love

All these times

I thought

You’d change

If only I loved you more

Days would pass by

Without you calling

Even on my birthday

Worse feeling ever

I’d lie by myself

Staring at the roof

Asking endless questions

I call

And you ignore me

Like a total stranger

The next day

You act like nothing happened

I cry and beg for your love

You look

And tell me with a smile

That I am complicated and too much

You make promises

And fail to keep them

What do I need to do?

To make you love me

I am drowning

Can you not see?

What did I ever do?

To deserve such treatment

I no longer recognize myself

You have taken so much

From me

And I allowed you

But no more

Throughout my life

I have always ran towards you

While you away from me

Although it took me great time

To see and realize

I am ready

To let go

And repel

Against any gravitation towards you

Different yet the same

It is amicably strange

how control we do not have

and solutions lack at times

yet through trials and disasters

and states of emergencies

across all corners of the earth

we attain a particular realization of how similar

we truly are

through our differences

COVID-19 is a good illustration

it affects the entire world

humanity is on the brink of collapse

as a result

although the pain that erupts

through deaths and falling sick

It unites the human race

through social distancing

How ironically strange

As difficult as it may be

Lives would be saved

this needs to be done

for the sake of humanity

My Ancestors

You call upon me
Into an unfamiliar territory
A jungle where I doubt my survivals skills
Comfort is immediately stripped off
Yet you expect of me
To remain calm
And answer your calling
Whilst I thirst of my comfort zone
As well as a possible way out

You respond accordingly
“There is no alternative”
Your actions make it clear
It’s either I answer the calling
Or I may never be answered
When you speak and make a decision
I listen and submit to your instructions

The time is now
To live for something
Other than everything
It is not easy
Exactly not what I imagined
But it is worth it
To be different
Spiritually be of assistance and healing to others

To walk towards the deep ends of the sea
Though the depth underneath
And the footpath through the jungle
Remains a mystery
And also live life on different rules
That do not apply to everyone
Who I am to refuse?
I accept