Reality of love

All these times

I thought

You’d change

If only I loved you more

Days would pass by

Without you calling

Even on my birthday

Worse feeling ever

I’d lie by myself

Staring at the roof

Asking endless questions

I call

And you ignore me

Like a total stranger

The next day

You act like nothing happened

I cry and beg for your love

You look

And tell me with a smile

That I am complicated and too much

You make promises

And fail to keep them

What do I need to do?

To make you love me

I am drowning

Can you not see?

What did I ever do?

To deserve such treatment

I no longer recognize myself

You have taken so much

From me

And I allowed you

But no more

Throughout my life

I have always ran towards you

While you away from me

Although it took me great time

To see and realize

I am ready

To let go

And repel

Against any gravitation towards you

Love

you walked in

one look at you

i knew

you were exactly

what I never knew

I needed

a beautiful disaster

a bit scary and unexpected

never been in this position

before

in control I have always been

but not with you

its a new world

of what true love

is capable of in a human

i was shaking like never before

could not sit still

my heart was loosing control

all plans i ever had

were aborted

of not aligning with a committed relationship

I’d move mountains

I’d be for you

in everything and everywhere

I will keep my promise

to love, protect and keep you safe

to walk for you where you fail

to be your strength when weak

for i have loved you

since day one

and will always love you

for zillions years to come

I appreaciate you

for showing me

that true love exists

from day

upon meeting

‘without even uttering any words

and just purely connecting

through each other’s presence, attraction and spirit

I could never have believed “true love”

had it not happened to me

for it’s rare nowadays

but our instant connection

revealed that it’s possible

in places

and with people

that we thought of

like with you – it was love at first sight

we were total strangers

who instantly had a love connection

It is not me

When will this line of thinking “it’s the world’s fault except mine” ever come to an end? Refusing responsibility when circumstances do not favor you it’s rather questionable and reveals more of an individual’s character than their intelligence and ability to get themselves out of problems.

If there is one thing I have learnt along the way is the mere fact that there is a need not to always be right and win every discussion that you partake in. Every discussion you have should never be based on a competition nor competing ideas neither.

At times taking full responsibilities of some of the mistakes you unintentionally and intentionally made does not mean you’re weak. It means you want to do right by everyone. It also shows your maturity level.