All these times

I thought

You’d change

If only I loved you more

Days would pass by

Without you calling

Even on my birthdays

Worse feeling ever

I’d lie by myself

Stare at the roof

Ask endless questions

I’d call

And as usual you ignore me

Like a total stranger

The next day

You act like nothing happened

I cry and beg for your love

For you to realise your faults

And you tell me with a smile – there is nothing to apologize for

That I am complicated and love drama

You repeatedly make promises

And fail to keep them

What do you take me for?

What do I need to do

To make you love me?

I am drowning

Can you not see?

The effects of your “love”

What have I done to deserve such treatment?

You make me feel worthless

I no longer recognize myself

You have taken so much

From me

And I allowed you

But no more

Throughout my life

I have always ran towards you

While you ran away from me

Although it took me a great time

To finally see and realize that you love me not

I am now ready

To let go

And repel

Against any gravitation towards you