Reality of love

All these times

I thought

You’d change

If only I loved you more

Days would pass by

Without you calling

Even on my birthday

Worse feeling ever

I’d lie by myself

Staring at the roof

Asking endless questions

I call

And you ignore me

Like a total stranger

The next day

You act like nothing happened

I cry and beg for your love

You look

And tell me with a smile

That I am complicated and too much

You make promises

And fail to keep them

What do I need to do?

To make you love me

I am drowning

Can you not see?

What did I ever do?

To deserve such treatment

I no longer recognize myself

You have taken so much

From me

And I allowed you

But no more

Throughout my life

I have always ran towards you

While you away from me

Although it took me great time

To see and realize

I am ready

To let go

And repel

Against any gravitation towards you